She laughed .... like all the others

She laughed Homo .... like all the others

Phases of Despair

Episode 50

Phases of Despair

Gwynplaine ..... yes ... despair of Gwynplaine ..... and thus I hid it ..... I didn't say a word .... may be I said too much previously ..... I am not willing to say too much ...... he said "You're miserable like myself .... I am not interested in discussing your phases of despair." ..... so let it be written ... so let it be done.

The Respite

Episode 49

The Respite

I admit I am not as frustrated as I was a fortnight ago ..... This mad flow of emotions I had slowed down .... most probably my mind refuses to acknowledge the flow is still ongoing between the two sides of a pendulum .... my mind can't synchronize ..... and there was nothing I could say to my mind to dispel it ..... so I stand still until the storm stops raging ...... or hide in a cave until the spring melt comes to an end .... it's a respite ...... like turning a page of madness  ...... a short respite .... among a dead body and its ashes ..... creatures that cannot comprehend yet can speak ..... creatures that can comprehend and yet cannot speak ...... and a deity ..... that sends a pedestal after  another for my being and keeps me hopping from height to depth ..... The fact is I am alone ..... and this will never change ....  a respite every now and then is no crime ...... I reckon you will never understand or believe me ..... Henceforth I owe no one an explanation ..... you are all but silhouettes ..... and your promises are just parts of the conjuring ..... let my respite begin .....