The Ascent

Episode 27

"Nothing killed my belief but dogma ..... a dole crowner in a golden shrine ... questions unanswered .... This could be sold in the market place .... but the rain drop that touched my cheek in the burning sun was gentle and genuine .... more genuine than their prayers ..... she told me God spoke only to those who made their brave ascent to the wooden shrine in solitude on the top of a lone mountain .... for only those who gave price for atonement could stay on the ground and speak to God ..... but they deserved no reply.

Cleansing of a slumbering lie ..... yes it was a handful of water neath my broken keel ..... As if I stepped into the avalanche that awakened me ..... I made my ascent .... the more I rise the smaller you've become ... earthly commandments compelled me not and ne'er they would .... your terrain commandments have fallen to stone deaf ears of mine .... a yonder land I have left behind me"

The moment I saw his face I was stabbed by awakening ..... his yonder land was the land I left behind before his arms stretched into the body of the blinded crow I am.

Leaf to The Wind

Episode 26


For she meant nothing but an autumn leaf to the winds

Once I landed where the breeze was a bit different than now, I could sense the ruthless autumn wind blowing, and I can tell it was not here.

I heard the faint voice of a withering autumn leaf crying to the wind "Oh mercy I beg of you mighty wind blowing me from this old bare tree, mercy I ask you as a frail fallen leaf ...."

Laughter we heard .... Mighty wind answered "My frail friend, beseech not mercy from me .... for you are not more precious to me than you are to the old bare tree"

And thus ... I flew again .... 

The scream of a firefly (Visions of Hildegard)

Episode 26

Crow: "By her side I was certain I'll find you Sophie ..... how you lit the life of young Hildegard von Bingen you mourne her death everyday.... and mourne the death of genuine man's senses blessed by visions"

Sophie: "Blind companion .... by my lantern she could see ... and you could carry the burden of bearing my light, and now extinguished by this facade that comes to dim their sight ... I am nothing but a firefly ..... I mourn the death of will to bear my lantern .... and now I am borne along with the stiff leaves awaiting for my light to be completely dimmed like my name"

Crow: "They spoke of you in their symposium"

Sophie: "Alas my friend I met you there in this symposium of deranged, a fine man you've been on the other side of a windowpane .... look at you now ... and look at me! ... neither my light, my name, nor yours are heard .... Like the name of Morpheus which one day painted their yester-world with dreams has faded into their yonder world .... I faded with Hildegard's visions in her yonder world."

White noise

Episode 25
White noise


Me: "As I stand before your stone I know you want to talk to me"
Him: "Blind as you are I could not sound like white noise to you"
Me: "For I only have this sense .... but it seems so true that I could hear you whose presence became nothing but a forgotten past ... you perished like myself"
Him: "I perished before you did ..... I was only escaping their words ..... Their tongues were whiplashes on my body ... belittling me .... how would it feel my friend?"
Me: "It feels like dying and breaking free"
Him: "I wish I could think of it this way ...... I let their tiny existence take huge space in me ... dogmatically believed in this word and did not question them a bit ..... their dogma versus my parasitic existence that I made by making my inner voices sound like white noise  ..... and I fell into the white noise and could never break free .... we became two of a kind"

Me: "I am the first one to hear you after your reincarnation .... but you woke up deaf my friend ... for this is what you chose"

Mundane and Mystic Land of Asgard

Episode 24 (Mundane ... and Asgard)

Asgard .... my mind strayed from Asgard long ago .... as I left Midgard in search for mundane ..... In Midgard there was a perfect equilibrium of Gods of good and giants of evil .... a perfect mythological reason for everything .... but Gods of Asgard died and new Gods were born, still good and evil are in equilibrium, and everything becomes habitual and questions die ..... belief dies, Mundane and mystic land of Asgard become the same .....

Apathy created a habit out of every questionable thing in floating cosmos .... and feeling of wonder is lost like losing your childhood as you grow and when you leave your mind out of gates of Midgard as a sacrifice for "Thor" to give life to what you did saw at the time you shall reap it for he gave it rain to grow ..... When apathy was born sun shone on nothing new

His Aura Was Silence (Rebirth)

Episode 23 (Reborn)

Leaving a world much like a facade .... I was dragged to a room beyond gravity .... no corners, spacious, silent, and warm ... A man whose aura was silence touched me ... He swallowed every audible presence in this aura as if they were sent to the black hole ..... my arms extensions to the body no longer mine I am stretching wings of a crow, my finger like feathers are making their way to a new life ....

Senses? .... Reborn still sensing my reincarnated feelings with surrounding .... Eyes open ... If I see you I'll hate this bliss of departing voices thinking of getting me to live a bit longer ... but why?

"Bless me with a name" ... I said inside ... to my surprise he assured my mind I left a world where names are of no need but to tell whose stone is which .... I'll be lying if I said I saw him ... but his aura was silence that brought serenity to my heart .... I was dead by then when placed my very soul into his blind crow ..... erased the pain of reawakening by giving me no name