Episode 6Sacrs might seem to be metaphorical, I'm talking about physical signs in my body. but the intangible part of it is the metamorphosis of pain and its transcendence to the extent of manifisting it on my skin ...... To me the transcendence of Ego made Gods, not necissarily real ones, and the transcendence of pain made philosophers and mad men.
Metamorphosi starts with an internal feeling of abstract agony, depression, ascending to hatered and sadness, real sadness, not the sadness you suffer when your parents deprive you of the morning candies because you did not drink your milk during the breakfast, it's the sadness you feel when you find no way out, just the wall, just the no where to hide, the nothingness, the sadness you feel when you feel alone in an over crowded life of strangers.
next stage is transcendence, it surpasses my tolerance, I manifist my inside and start the razor prayer, for my pain preached to me to mark every sign as a memory of pain, just like reminders and birthdates people celebrate.
next phase, years and years ... where did this magnitude go? is it the same direction? down and down? or was that magnitude of energy directed in a constructive manner? it depends on who I am nowadays.
Finally I take a look in silence and contemplate all the hatred and sadness,they were never but my allies, if it were not for hatred and sadness I woudn't have ever learnt about moving on. I admit it might sound sick, means lead to ends, we all revolve around death, we don't know when it will grant us eternity, but we have to walk the long destined road no matter what awaits.
